Monday, 8 July 2013

An awful lot can happen in half a year.


I know that we're like a week into July and everyone had these sorts of posts up at the very start but I've been super busy and I've spent loads of time thinking about my life and my self and this year so far and I've realised a lot of things about myself and what I want to do with myself.
So we're officially into the second half of the year, this is always my favourite we have the end of summer, in England this is where it starts to warm up and then its straight into Autumn, I love Autumn it's my favourite season. Then we get Winter and Christmas, like who doesn't like Christmas? So what have the first 6 months of the year taught me?

January - In January I learnt that my university friends were quite possibly the best people I could have ever hoped to meet. They really are the loveliest girls and no matter how much of a dick I am or how much I hate myself or am being stupid about something they know that a pizza and a hug will sort it out. I can't wait to move in with them in September. I also learnt that I can't just mope around in bed and be depressed when something bad happens, I can be happy on my own.
February - February was an odd month, I learnt that if I feel like killing myself over an assignment I just cannot do that I will eventually get it done in around 12 hours and still get a 2:1 for it. I learnt that my friends are amazing and that my other friends will pretty much do anything I tell them, such as 'We're going to Download Festival, buy a ticket!' and they did. I learnt that if you try hard enough you will get what you want but then later find that it's not always the best thing what you think is right.
March - March was a little weird, it had ups and downs, I learnt that if you go on holiday with your boyfriend and his family to do every single thing they say or you will get picked at about it for the rest of your relationship. I learnt that skiing is a great way to get a toned bum but is painful when you get wiped out, I also learnt that the French mountains don't have any decent food. March did show me that family will always pull together when we need to.
April - I learnt in April that no matter what you can't trust the people you love, you think you can but you really can't. I got stressed over uni and made a few silly decsions, I thought I was going to drop out and get a job and move away because I was fed up and thought it sounded romantic just running off to London.
May - Although I'd been considering running off to London I stuck in and did my exams and did my best, I started to doubt my choices in life and I began to feel unsure about what I wanted in life. I realised I couldn't live without the amazing girls I'd met at uni, they literally are my rock.
June - I can't even tell you how much I learnt about myself in June, I realised I wasn't the person I used to be or liked to be. I'd changed myself for someone else, I realised I couldn't do that anymore. I missed the old Kloe. I decided to break it off with John and I feel as if I'm not free to do as I please, I know that sounds harsh but I feel as if I'm now able to go to gigs all the time and blast rock music and live in the colour black and get 23987247 tattoos and not worry about how he'll feel about it all. I know that sounds silly, I honestly loved him, but I feel like maybe I put my life/myself /my hobbies on the shelf for the time we were together. I've felt so good this past week, more relaxed. I know how awful that sounds.

6 Photo's that sum up each month
1. January was filled with snow and I lived in that blood coat. 2. February these girls man, I just love them they are my rocks. 3. March I can 'ski' and take photos mid ski. 4. April who doesn't like a Smith's tour around Manchester? 5. May my babes, I love them haha at the Seaside Final day of 1st year! 6. June Download festival which was the best 5 days of my life with the best friend of 8 yearsish Samantha. 
So these past six months have been a huge change around in my life, I've learnt so much about myself. I also realised how good my friends are to me and how good I actually have it. I've realised who I want to be and where I want to go with my life, I don't need to be in a relationship to be happy like I thought I'm good on my own. I mean I miss loads of cuddles and stuff but I'm sure I'll be fine. 

Have you changed much over the past 6 months? Have you done a mid year round up? 

K. x

9 comments:

  1. It doesn't sound awful at all! You're allowed to feel relaxed and enjoy your hobbies and not be reliant on a bloke :)

    I think it's really easy to lose yourself in a relationship and glad it sounds like you're getting back on track. It took me ages to un-lose myself but eventually I managed to do it.

    Elizabeth xx

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    1. Aww thanks Elizabeth that makes me feel so much better! I like just being able to feel relaxed about how I dress or what I feel like doing.
      I'm getting right back on track to being just me I feel great about it :) xx

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  2. You have a really great blog!
    I'm a New follower on GFC =)

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    1. Thank you! I'll take a look at your blog :)

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  3. such a great post, I feel like I've got to know you a little better. Also I recently gone through a break up too so if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to contact me :) xx

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    1. Thank you, I'm pleased it added more of a personal touch to my blog :) and aw no I hope you're ok if you need someone to talk to feel free to contact me too :) xx

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  4. Busy bee, i can barely remember the last six months let alone round it up! Looks week you had an eventful time, it is amazing how much you can grow, learn and change in half a year! I hope you have the BEST second half, you deserve it Sweetness.
    Such a great post, i always love reading your personal ones!

    -Jade
    gracious-silhouettes.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Haha, yeah I've been super busy this year! Haha, I've learnt so much about myself this year I can't wait to see what the second half reveals!
      I hope you have a brilliant second half of the year too lovely :)
      And thank you, I do enjoy writing the odd personal post :)
      Ps. your face is lush so be quiet haha xx

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  5. P.s I adore that top photo, you are so stunning! Face swap please? Yes thanks you xx

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