Thursday, 3 July 2014

Dream Big

I've hit that stage in life where I've realised I have to start growing up, next year university will be over and I'll have to become an actual adult and get a proper job and start saving for a mortgage and all sorts of rubbish such as that, and to be perfectly honest it terrifies me! When I was younger the 'where do you see yourself in 5 years' question was an easy one, oh I expect to be at university, working a part time job maybe have a boyfriend. The question now makes me panic a little 5 years time, shouldn't I be settling down by the time I'm 25? When my mam was 25 she'd been married 2/3 years, she'd just given birth to me and she had her own home, the thought of that scares the shit out of me. Yeah I'd love to get married and have babies and everything eventually but the fact that at 25 my mam had done all that scares me because what will I be doing at 25? If I am married with a child on the way, I'd like to think I'll find my future husband before the year is out otherwise I'd question both the marriage and why I was having a child haha.
Does it not worry anyone else when they get this question in an interview? 5 years really isn't as long as you think it is, when I was younger I had this amazing idea of what my life would be like. I was sure I'd have found the perfect man and be married to him and we'd have an adorable country home with a mint green and white kitchen and a huge garden. I'd have my dream job and we'd have a white picket fence around the house and have several cats and a dalmation. You know when you're younger 25 seems old and you think that's how it'll be. Looking through pinterest I found a few images which really sum up what I thought I'd have by the time I'm 25 when I was 11 years old here it is, my ideal life;
As you can see it's all cute and country with White picket fences, so idyllic I bet the people who asked me the question laughed at me for being so naive. What I wanted was what I'll hopefully have by 35. In reality by 25 I'll be hopefully have completed a masters degree and will be starting my dream job, I'd like to think I'll have a relationship that's fairly stable but not yet married. I'd like to think I'll have a cat though because you I'm a bit of a cat lady.
Growing up my thoughts and dreams of my future have slightly changed, hell I'd still love my dream job or be a housewife if I could be because that would be pretty amazing but still they have changed. My perfect little white picket fenced house has become a townhouse, I still want the white picket fence but not until I'm ready to settle down. I'd rather have a few years in the city first, if you told 11 year old me that I'd have scoffed in your face but as I've gotten older I've grown to love the cities. Don't get me the countryside is still beautiful but living in a city everything is within walking distance, there's always something fun to do and places to go. That's where I want to be at 25 in the city not 100% settled down with dogs and cats and marriage the city doing my dream job (with a guy who loves me if he ever comes along haha). I blame Sex and The City and How I Met You Mother for me wanting to live in the city throughout my early 20s. I'd still want a pretty kitchen though. 
Of course my dream homes don't stop there, these are what I'd class as more realistic ideas, I'm one of those girls who spends so much time looking at beautiful houses but I will never have enough time to live in them all obviously haha. I feel like I definitely need more than one life for the amount of homes I want, alongside cute country homes and chic town houses I want a gothic mansion, you know the ones. I'd love it, they just look so beautiful. I forever wind my mam up telling her I'm going to get a gothic house and build a family mausoleum out back she's never impressed by this. Haha.
I find it amazing how your dreams change as you get older, I mean they don't change much but they change because you begin to understand the reality of situations and have a different outlook on life. I think I'm starting to grow up a little, I'm learning that I probably won't get what I want straight out of college and if I want to live in a city I'll have to live off crappy food to afford it.Still I'm going to fill a pinterest board with all the things I dream of having in the future, especially the perfect home because I can dream and hope and there is nothing wrong with doing just that.

How do you feel about growing up? What's your perfect home like?
K. x
follow me on Bloglovin'InstagramTwitter &Lookbook.


  1. I get so scared for the future to but really exited at the same time!
    I'm not even 100% sure what I want out of life at the minute but I do know I have extremely high expectations and plan on living up to all of them.
    Good look achieving your goals!

    1. It's awful mix of nerves and excitement it's so bad! I have high expectations too! Lets hope we reach them xx

  2. I agree with you, the "where do you see yourself in 5 years" was a much easier question when I was younger. Nothing ever changed as quickly back then. These days it's like "Well, I should probably be in my ideal career, thinking about children and I'm hopefully married." Wow, then did I become so grown up? xx

    1. It's an awful question. I know I'm like oh shit maybe I should find me a man! Haha xx

  3. Lovely taste!