I've had this post waiting in my drafts for weeks waiting to be written, I've been putting it off for so long because to be honest I feel really sad writing it and it makes it even more real and scary. However, I feel it is now time to share this post with you and actually finish writing it because let's face it more than anything I use this blog as a sort of online diary and I really do want to document this because it has been such a huge part of my life and it has changed me so much. So here it is my goodbye to Teesside University.
L-R; Seaside Trips with Shona, Abbey &Mel, My 19th Birthday with them, On our way to the metro centre, girly nights &more seaside trips.
It doesn't feel like five minutes since I started you first year, I remember how excited I was about finally going off to university, my life was finally complete I had everything I wanted a boyfriend, the bestest friends ever and I was on my way to becoming a Forensic Biologist. The first year just flew by it was a little hard around the January due to being ill and relationship issues but it just brought me so close to Abbey, Shona and Mel, we were always together during first year. We ate ridiculous amounts of pizza and probably procrastinated far too much. I finished first year not too sure about what I was going to do with my life, I wasn't sure if I wanted to drop out or continue all because of a relationship, thankfully I wasn't a massive idiot and continued at Teesside because Second year was where I feel I really started to realise what I wanted in life. Plus I finally moved out and that was the most amazing feeling ever.
L-R; Freshers with Abbey, Becca &Rosie, More Freshers with Abbey, Mel &Meg, My favourite Gay Jonno on one of the most hilarious nights ever, one of the best house parties we had, my other favourite Gay Mitch at my favourite ever gay bar Tiny, final fling with the guys who have become some of the greatest friends I've ever had Nick, Michael & Chris and of course Becca.
Oh second year the amount of alcohol I drank is no joke, how I survived I do not know although all the nights out and parties did introduce me to some of the most amazing people I have ever met. Second year was kind of an odd one if I'm honest, it really opened my eyes when it came to friendships and made me re-evaluate a lot in my life, I got rid of the people who brought me down and made better relationships with those who I could trust and it was one of the best choices I've ever made. It also made me completely change my mind career wise too, however I still more than anything want to be a scientist and I still really want to help people.
L-R; Oh man the night we got abbey mortal &it was hilarious, St. Patricks Day yet another hilarious night, my 21st, my 21st with the girls from my course Abbey, Shona, Charlotte, Emma &Clare, Final Year Project Poster Day with Forensic Biology, Forensics Seaside Trip.
Finally third year, I still cannot for the life of me believe it is over, that is it I have completed my three years as an undergraduate student, I'm done. It has flown over, I remember sitting in my first lecture back in September and thinking my god May is so far away and then I blink and it's here I'm sitting my final exam and almost having a break down because I couldn't remember a thing. This year has been the hardest of my life personally and having uni on top of it has really taken it's toll but I have had the most amazing people by my side through out the entire year giving me the confidence and help I've needed and just being the bestest people ever listening to me cry, rant and putting up with my shit when I've gotten mardy and truly they are the greatest friends ever for sticking by me and helping me so much.
It really makes me so sad saying goodbye to Teesside University and the amazing people it has brought in to my life, I've had some amazing times whilst at university and I don't think I'll ever forget some of them. I've met some absolutely amazing people who I am so thankful for having in my life because they really mean the world to me and honestly with out them I'm not sure I'd have made it through this past year, there's no way I could ever forget them. These people have changed me so much, they've really helped me develop as a person, they've had confidence in me when no one else has and they've helped me realise that I am capable of so much more than I think I am and that no matter what other people say I am a good person I just have to believe in myself and I truly love them for that and I wish I could thank them for it but I don't really tell people these types of things, so I'm just going to write it here instead. Seriously though I've really met some amazing people at uni. I'm so pleased that I ended up at Teesside in the past 3 years I have really grown as a person, I'm no longer scared of living alone, I know I can do it, I've lost about 2 stone and I couldn't be happier, I've begun to believe in myself and have confidence in what I do and I am so proud of myself for all of it. I'm so proud of myself for getting this far, for completing this degree even when all I wanted was to give up and hide in bed. I don't have a single regret about my time at university, I really wish I could do it all over again, I might change a few things if I could like meet people much sooner than I did and put a lot more effort in during second year but yano.
Anyway this post is making me feel really sad because I have no idea when or if I'll ever see some people again and that's pretty heart breaking. Here's to you Teesside University thank you having me for 3 years and for giving me some amazing people in my life. I will miss you.